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OMG I HATE MY PARENTS!
such a teenage thing to say but im past caring
ive been at college since September and my mum and dad both have no fucking clue what so ever about what days im there, from what time or even what fucking course im doing!
yet my sister who has recently started a new job, well they know what times she's there, what the companies called probably even her fucking boss
i might threaten to move out too and see if that may make a change
doubt it
and guess what my mum said today to me
'what have you even done in the past 6 months'
then through a water bottle in my face, so i through it back(dont know where it hit her, but i hope it was straight in her fat face) and stormed off
SHE HAS NO FUCKING CLUE!
she works at a school, as a wannabe teacher(teaching but with all the spaz's and future criminals) so basically babysitting all day, then comes home, does a few loads of washing, and even that's a Friday or sumet, we have a dishwasher, oh and she iron's, her big claim to doing shit loads of house work
thats all she does

me on the other hand well i go to college 3 days a week, with shit loads of college work to do both in and out of college, i mean just this half term ive had 3 different assignments to do along with research too
i then have a job which i work at Saturday,Sunday and Monday and maybe Tuesday along with exercising everyday for at least half an hour
both mentally and psychically ive been changing and progressing through these last fucking 6 months!
instead she sits on her arse as soon as she's through the door and eats chocolate and shit and stares at me as though im a fucking Ana because im half bothered about being a fucking coach potato both now and in the future. Yet she's the one who eats sumet and then goes through it back up, almost every fucking time, and my dad who dosent eat anything at all apart from shit at night!!! argh yet im the one they look at as though im crazy WTF SERIOUSLY
My dad omg dont get me started on that fucking child, hes completely unaware of everything going around him, he sits on his arse everyday driving a lorry, yet he doesn't claim to do shit loads apposed to my mum. Yet he is so incredibly stupid sometimes, i mean his idea of fun is going to sit in a manky old pub with his 'mates' drinking beer and watching TV, something you can also do for a lot cheaper at home!
At least he gets out though and tries going out, my mum oh no she darnt bloody socialise
SO PISSED OFF
isound like im feeling sorry for myself but she has no fucking clue, my dad dosent even know how old i am for christ sake!
i mean the other week i asked him to buy me some drink, and he said' why dont you get it yourself?'
'erm maybe cause you have to be 18 dad'
'oh your not 18 yet?'
YOU FUCKING MORONIC MAN!
right im going, RANT OVER !
TILL THE NEXT ONE HAAAAAAAAA
XXXXX

Save this town

Stuck in all day again
Even my driving lesson was cancelled
its a sign
just got on with college work lets face it theres fuck all else to do
to young to do anything decent and to old i get bored with everything else
and i really dont want to
kept up a constant crying session today
nice one
i know why but lets face it who gives a fuck
anyways im still in a shit mood feel really angry but theres no point
so im going to do sumet to salvage this shitty day
im not wasting tomorrow


such an shit post
bye

The infinite pet

Feel amazing lately, completly flying ahead with my work, so no need to stress about that, lets face it working at greggs is even easier,plenty of money in the bank, overall feel great. need to get out more though, i havnt seen any of my mates for over 2 weeks now yet theyve all been out, but thats my fault anyway.
ANYWAYS iv bin sat here doing yet more college work for hours so im going to go MOVE feel like my weights going the wrong way again, but that may be more to do with the fact that when im bored or sat still for a while or whatever i can feel myself getting fatter, its so retarded. But hey im off :D BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE X

If we ever meet again

I really do love that song atm
Went to Leeds and fell in love with it !
i could see me there when i go to uni which i am so up for atm its really weird
Vintage shops there were brill and everyone was so young and normal
no chavs just emoy scene kids or whatever you call them which are just quite anyways
Been asked to go to town on a night out with friends for his birthday, slight problem, I'm not old enough oh and no-one i know looks anything like me !
so that's one I'm gonna have to miss out on AGAIN
Anyways had a really good week, feel happier than i have in a Long time, going to college tomorrow to get ahead with my college work and again on Thursday to start some new projects and finish off others.
Going to be very busy in the next few months, preparing myself for that, not going to get half as stressed as i did before.
already THROUGH MOST OF THE BEGINNING BIT WHICH IS GOOD. Got more shifts at work after hardly any for like 2 weeks, plus i need to get y money back up after Leeds, whoops spent just a bit too much, but i really don't care haaa
right on a positive note I'm going to find out how to do this hairstyle via Google, yes i am sad never mind ciao ! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Suddenly i see

This post really is probably going to be just full of crap like the rest still ...
got a ton of work today all due in at the end of Feb to carry on beginning the rest of the project, I'm really starting to like college even more now i don't know why I'm just really happy there atm.
i was going to start talking about more on here but i just feel like whatever i write someones going to take the piss. i really shouldn't think that way and i hate that i do but i don't know. Feel like everyone has something to give but I'm just there for numbers. I get invited places and stuff but i just don't feel like theres any difference for me to be there anymore. i actually feel part of something at college and I'm actually enjoying it but i don't want to feel that way in just one place
I'm seriously shutting up now
ill read this again and just think
shut the fuck up
and stop feeling sorry for yourself
which is what I'm going to do

There goes the fear

Notice how i still haven't moved? i just began checking on other randomers blogs, man how much time they must spend on them making them look nice and personal. On some you can clearly see that there desperate to make it look like a piece of them for everyone to see. i get it, i really do, but when its so obvious its rather funny.
My hands are beginning to become like ice, Ive just thought i need to do so much this year,
learn to play guitar even more, perhaps capable of doing it publicly (don't hold your breath)
learn my theory and learn how to drive (teacher is a piss take)
go to festivals
have fun !
I'm always quiet and that lately but nothing is wrong, people don't get sometimes when you want to be quite and just watch, then let them. ill join in when i want to k.
right this time I'm really going to get changed and do something worth while today or else ill be bored and annoyed tonight.
finally bye again x

You make my dreams

Obsessed with the 500 days soundtrack and film ! it 's brill
I'm only on this because I'm procrastinating, i need to get on with an essay or at least start the research, cba ! plus I'm already getting dead legs although that will go away when i stop sitting on them.
I need to get dressed, i haven't changed out of my dads old tshirt in 2 days, lets make it three, may go out for a cig later, if it stops raining.
Right I'm off, to go put some tights on at least, I'm freezing, as soon as my mum goes back to work after her dinner that heating is going straight on !
cya x