Wednesday, 27 January 2010

Smile

Listening to glee soundtrack, Skins begins tomorrow !
Just been googling for thinspo, need to lose another 5lbs I'm beginning to feel fast again, well just arms and legs anyhooo.
I shan't mention that fact to mama :D
Need to seriously quit comparing myself to others, anyway, party on Saturday going to buy some strawberry's and bananas tomorrow from the market, or on Friday, whenever its on and make a smoothie and put some vodka init, Ive also got my cranberry juice to add too. Should be nice, if not cigarettes should be fine and ill maybe trade someone ha !
Not sure what time to stay till though, Ive got work the next day, but i may just spend Saturday asleep so i wont really miss out, sometimes were up till like 8 the next day.
Need to get sorted tomorrow i have the morning off from college so lie in and ill get all my stuff at dinner time, should be a good day i hope. I'm going to do my Pilate's soon, sort those arms and legs out anyways so seeyaaaa x

Monday, 25 January 2010

Boston

I think I'm just going to title my blog post's to whatever song I'm listening to at that time, seems alot easier than making up one. Wish that was the case for my blog spot name, i don't want it ! i want to change it ! but every time i do someone else already has it ! arghh so doing my head in.
Tried practising on my guitar yesterday and today, got frustrated because i couldn't get it. Going to have to go to the neighbours tomorrow and ask him to help me learn,. or at least look like i can play it. I need to learn use somebody, buy Pixie Lott's version, so i can mime to it in my music video i have to make for college. Need a storyline of some sort to go to it as well though , otherwise it's just going to be me playing a song.
Id write more but i really cant be bothered, i think I'm going to go exercise soon too, my backs starting to hurt, but I'm too full ATM I've eaten a Monday dinner, and i rushed it so it feels weird at the minute, ill go and exercise at half 8, although i do have lots to do tomorrow, going to get up early, either dye my hair first thing or at night, depends on my sister, hope it doesn't go wrong ! ugh
then i have to go pick up some results from Don Valley although i could do that on Wednesday after college and walk home, not sure depends on the whether.
Well Ciao ! x

Saturday, 23 January 2010

Hey there

Forgot to write on this yesterday way too busy and then i just fell asleep.
Forgot to fucking exercise nearly !
Did Pilate's although i miss my skipping :( haven't done it since Tuesday, my bodies just exhausted. Went for a beaut run though, no-one down the tracks, the cold air hurt though when i stopped, made it better.
So yesterday i did my presentation, i think it went well, got either a merit or distinction,I'm not sure if the teacher likes me though. Handed in all my essays and film for Breakfast Club in 60 seconds, id rather get the distinction or merit than win the comp although that would be fun :D
Felt like i was going to have a heart attack doing the presentation, my voice sounded like i was going to cry, but apparently i didn't 'look' nervous, although I'm assuming i bored people so much that they didn't notice.
This guy in my class just winged it, i mean it seemed like he knew he was talking about, well his confidence helped it to look that way, i want to be that confident, sumet i need to work on i guess.
Teachers have already started asking us all what we wanna do as a realistic career. Most people in my class want to be directors. Or start off as a runner.
I have NO clue, i change my mind to much. Id like to work for heat, or on MTV as a presenter. Just something interesting and fun that will keep you busy and motivated. I just want to put my energy to something worth while that people are going to anticipate. You know like on films when you see all of the credits, imagine how proud the people who have contributed to making a TV show, film or even music video. I want to be a part of that, no matter how big or small.
So today, got to work (late again) my dad refuses to set off before half past, i mean i have to get dressed and go on the shop floor at 5 too. Today was good at work, wounder how many calories Ive burned. I feel like I'm gaining weight when i miss exercise even though I'm losing it without trying these days. I just feel lazy though, I'm always exhausted, drinking water constantly and you know what that leads too, and then I'm craving chocolate, but i just end up having one of those snack twix's or a chunk of chocolate, i don't even like it but now its like i have to have it, like when your incredibly thirsty, your not satisfied until you've clenched that craving or thirst. Which makes me feel worse and fatter because I'm too tired to exercise, well exercise properly which is usually half an hour skipping and then 20 minutes on Pilate's. I just keep managing to do my Pilate's and sit ups and squats and stuff every night, but i miss my cardio :( well with some hope ill just have breakfast and something to eat when i get home from work and start my exercise at 7 and get my cardio if anything else. Or dancing ha Ive never been dancing but its not hard, i mean with all the dance shows on TV these days its not difficult to pick some moves up and make them your own.
Well seeing as I'm shattered once again I'm going to finish playing on cafe world on face book and go and do Pilate's for a stretch before i go to bed.
See ya ! x

Thursday, 21 January 2010

How creative !

http://blo64rt.blogspot.com/

this person does really good backgrounds, quite proud of my blog now seeing as i only started it the other day :D just need to 'click' around

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh anyways back to work !
stop distracting me !

Do you want to go to the seaside ?

So just woke up from a nap (always exhausted of late) and i figured id write a post before i get into doing my prompt cards for tomorrows presentation that should have been done ages ago.
I cant believe i woke up and started crying because my mum and dad had fish and chips without me , clearly very tired, i mean, how pathetic ! so i ended up feasting on 2 bowls of fucking Frosties instead, i have no clue why i wasn't even that hungry, or so i thought, even though i practically drank them. Never gonna be an Edie at this rate ! ha ha
Just been listening to the Kooks as I'm sure your aware of by my title for this post, just thought for my music video (that Ive got to do for college soon) i could do that song with Alex, pretending to mime to and play the guitar i guess, need some clips of him with a girl or something like that, I'm not sure, more research to do yet on what kind of video i can do.
Still going to get my prompt cards out of the way and chill out as tomorrow is going to be a long day, tons due in.
Bye x

Wednesday, 20 January 2010

FAT LEGS, CAMEL TOE MAKES A MAN GO HELL NO

ha ha the title honestly made me laugh
i love how this thing has spell check too, i type to fast
so clearly you can tell I'm rambling just to get into the flow of using this thing

I shall tell you about my day, its been shit, well no actually just when i was at college it was.
That may have more to do with the fact that i was in a crappy mood after spending the night at Alex's with Ashley having a little 'rave' til the early hours of the morning.
I was put into a further shitty mood because of this stupid teacher called Denice and her pointless key skills lesson. I mean I've had to do English and Maths since i was little i got my grades and because i don't have the piece of frigging paper to prove it (which i doubt i even got, but that's just me passing blame i guess) i may have to resit them. EXAMS ARGHHH ! I cant handle exams at all hence the reason for doing a course which are all assignments not exams. HELLO I DID THIS FOR A REASON !
That was just my morning, then i had to listen to this pointless drivel from my other teacher Rodney who has more knowledge about alcohol than his previous life spent in the media business, along with the even more mindless drivel off my fellow students, who clearly nearly ALL have ADD. They never shut the fuck up and it's all about nothing, for example computer games, computers, formats etc n blah blah blah. Personally it all sounds like they each try to Google as much info as they can on media just so they can 'beat' each other to sound smarter.
Although surprisingly the 'geeks' in the class, id pick to hang out with over any day, at least they can take turns talking and discussing a topics instead of trying to shout over each other to get their point across.

So after slagging off almost all my college class, which isn't all that bad when I'm in a good mood and they haven't been fed sugar by their mothers in a morning.

So yeah, came home, ate went to sleep, woke up at like 6 came on here, got tea and drank a ridiculous amount of water (which i cant get enough of these past few weeks, SO THIRSTY) and sorted my Ipod out and began writing this.

Wait no, i did go to 3 shops with my sister to get some milk and bread, because everywhere was shut. I love how she tries to cram in a months worth of talking in possibly 5 minutes and its not like she wants my opinion. i haven't seen her in ages, she has a new boyfriend who i think she is going to move in with very soon, mother will be distraught. She clearly was when my brother went to uni and never looked back, which is a GOOD thing. He's now living in Newcastle with his girlfriend designing for some designer who i can never remember, but he seems happy, and has the same bleak outlook i have on Doncaster. It's just depressing, it's more of a town of 'what was, than what is' i mean my mum and dad are always going on about how great it was, and now how it's just gone. Hello don't depress me anymore.

I'm glad they're doing there own thing, but it's hard when you have to see how it's effecting my mum and dad, but that's part of having kids, you've got to let them go. (cliche i know)
I'm just worried what my departure will do, will they stay together or not? Well just under 2 more years to wait and see i guess. Tons to do in that time, i have to go to concerts! stop out camping the summer's, go on a holiday with my friends both abroad and in England.

Think i may have just about completely killed people with boredom to whoever reads this, i forget if it's set to private, but hey no-one knows me, i think.

Time to spell check (habit)

Later x

Tuesday, 19 January 2010

The Lodge

First post
Alex set this up for me, looks like RPattz tbh but my heart still belongs to him lol (its a joke, no-one ever gets them) anyhooooo going now to cheer Alex up with Ashley, and join his little 'gathering' cause its not really a party. TIME TO DANCE,DRUGS AND DRINK (water, cba with drink and drugs, its a school night for christ' sake! )
Ciao bopiiiii :D

x