Right so yeah you know how i was moaning about wanting to meet new people?? Well i did, a boy ! haha its so weird i dont like it, i dont think, i cant believe how much i get annoyed when he dosent text back for ages :S i dont like it ! im not one of those lovey dovey people, who use babe and all of that stuff, so i just basically seem like the ice queen haha, but thats just me.
So i think i like him, i dont know today's been a weird day, in fact this week's been a weird week really. Ive lost half a stone because ive been anxious all week, even i think thats a bit mad, but i cant eat, i try and then manage to get in three bits of w.e and then i just cant be bothered, i feel like ugh il find something else in a bit, then i never do.
I really dont like this,i think
ARGH JUST FUCK OFF :S im not used to this, i dont know how to act or anything, cause im weird but i duno
I JUST DONT KNOW ANYTHING
Thursday, 29 April 2010
Friday, 16 April 2010
ANOREXIC BEAUTY
Right so i went to see Remember Me
very good actually
some bits rather random and what not
but the ending is just like woah, they did not just go there, talk about taboo, specially for America
anyways rather sad to say the least because the film is so relatable
so yeah just have a good happy film on after or anything cause man that shits rather depressing. well it was for me anyways cause i already dont think im gunna make it till im old anyways, i have a weird feeling i wont get past 20, which is why i get more pissed off and frustrated when im stuck in all day, i can just feel myself getting borded and lazier and just down.
In fact im getting sick of it all tbh, i mean i do get invited out and stuff but i just dont enjoy it because im stuck in all day and then when i do get out im just past caring and i just think well what waste of a day
i seriously need to find new friends, i mean i like mine but i think im just past it, ive already been through all the drug n shit when i was like 14 so i just get bored by it these days, plus its taking my mates away from me in the first place i mean yeah they have a good night and stuff, i think i dont know i dont see them seeing as they just walk off into another room and leave me with the shit music, then dont talk anyways when they come back.
Then they dont sleep till like when they get home which will be sumet stupid like 6 in the morning or w.e and then sometimes they dont sleep at all, which means their either in bed or too tired to wana do out. Although whenever i ask to do anything no-one wants to do oat even though their already walking around out and about, so im just there thinking ytf am i even mates with these people.
its gotten to the point where no-one wants to go out unless its with drink or drugs, but then there are nights when we just go to a mates house and watch a film with a drink and sumet to eat which is good, but everyone else will probably think thats boring or sumthing.
Then whenever i am out with my mates, im the one who gets ripped or picked on the most or w.e you wana call it, and i know its a joke, but seeing as its happened constantly since i was in like year 7 i just think yeah fuck off you prick trying to belittle me cause what i said was half intelligent and not some sarcastic little snyde comment.
argh just need a whole new life these days, i mean i dont care what i do or where i go in a day just so long as its out of my fucking house with half decent conversations PLEASE THERE MUST BE PEOPLE OUT THERE !!!
i feel like im slagging everyone off but i have to bite my tongue so often and its not like im losing out on anything anyways iv had to rely on my own company for years so what do i care. i mean iv even had to walk to cussy by myself these days because ive got that pissed off at being inside and fucked off with everyone bullshitting saying their busy or not doing anything that ive just walked out and kept walking till iv got cold, or lost the anger.
how pathetic right, it shouldnt be this way.
They say you can count your best actual mates on one hand, well i can do one better i can count mine on one finger, i thought it was two but i think thats just drifted to far apart to count anymore, i think i had been hoping not, but every time i need them even just to talk to for over 10 seconds at least its just not there anymore, so i think i may aswell just cut my looses on that one because i just get more angry with them than anyone else because their supposed to be there !!
Well im going because im just getting angrier and whoever reads this, specially if it is my mates or w.e are just gonna fall out with me but w.e this is mu opinion of what i think lately, they can easily help me change my mind about everything but i think everyone thinks i dont get involved or w.e anyways, even though i would if i was even remotely interested in half the stuff or w.e but anyways going ! !!
very good actually
some bits rather random and what not
but the ending is just like woah, they did not just go there, talk about taboo, specially for America
anyways rather sad to say the least because the film is so relatable
so yeah just have a good happy film on after or anything cause man that shits rather depressing. well it was for me anyways cause i already dont think im gunna make it till im old anyways, i have a weird feeling i wont get past 20, which is why i get more pissed off and frustrated when im stuck in all day, i can just feel myself getting borded and lazier and just down.
In fact im getting sick of it all tbh, i mean i do get invited out and stuff but i just dont enjoy it because im stuck in all day and then when i do get out im just past caring and i just think well what waste of a day
i seriously need to find new friends, i mean i like mine but i think im just past it, ive already been through all the drug n shit when i was like 14 so i just get bored by it these days, plus its taking my mates away from me in the first place i mean yeah they have a good night and stuff, i think i dont know i dont see them seeing as they just walk off into another room and leave me with the shit music, then dont talk anyways when they come back.
Then they dont sleep till like when they get home which will be sumet stupid like 6 in the morning or w.e and then sometimes they dont sleep at all, which means their either in bed or too tired to wana do out. Although whenever i ask to do anything no-one wants to do oat even though their already walking around out and about, so im just there thinking ytf am i even mates with these people.
its gotten to the point where no-one wants to go out unless its with drink or drugs, but then there are nights when we just go to a mates house and watch a film with a drink and sumet to eat which is good, but everyone else will probably think thats boring or sumthing.
Then whenever i am out with my mates, im the one who gets ripped or picked on the most or w.e you wana call it, and i know its a joke, but seeing as its happened constantly since i was in like year 7 i just think yeah fuck off you prick trying to belittle me cause what i said was half intelligent and not some sarcastic little snyde comment.
argh just need a whole new life these days, i mean i dont care what i do or where i go in a day just so long as its out of my fucking house with half decent conversations PLEASE THERE MUST BE PEOPLE OUT THERE !!!
i feel like im slagging everyone off but i have to bite my tongue so often and its not like im losing out on anything anyways iv had to rely on my own company for years so what do i care. i mean iv even had to walk to cussy by myself these days because ive got that pissed off at being inside and fucked off with everyone bullshitting saying their busy or not doing anything that ive just walked out and kept walking till iv got cold, or lost the anger.
how pathetic right, it shouldnt be this way.
They say you can count your best actual mates on one hand, well i can do one better i can count mine on one finger, i thought it was two but i think thats just drifted to far apart to count anymore, i think i had been hoping not, but every time i need them even just to talk to for over 10 seconds at least its just not there anymore, so i think i may aswell just cut my looses on that one because i just get more angry with them than anyone else because their supposed to be there !!
Well im going because im just getting angrier and whoever reads this, specially if it is my mates or w.e are just gonna fall out with me but w.e this is mu opinion of what i think lately, they can easily help me change my mind about everything but i think everyone thinks i dont get involved or w.e anyways, even though i would if i was even remotely interested in half the stuff or w.e but anyways going ! !!
Monday, 5 April 2010
funnehhh convo i thought
jade: going to see remeber me tomorrow
dean: haha because of the story, or Pattinson?
jade:pattinson obv, one for the wank bank
ALWAYS WANTED TO SAY THAT !!
dean:lmao!
dean: haha because of the story, or Pattinson?
jade:pattinson obv, one for the wank bank
ALWAYS WANTED TO SAY THAT !!
dean:lmao!
Just remebered
Dean just reminded me, went to see kick ass the other day
fucking amazing !!!
spent most of the film getting over the fact that the 12 year old was KILLING people like it was no-bodies business , ha so good
going to see Remember me tomorrow
Robert Pattinson, hiyarghhh
btw Jack Whitehall and Robert Pattinson as one person would be my dream man
end of
x
fucking amazing !!!
spent most of the film getting over the fact that the 12 year old was KILLING people like it was no-bodies business , ha so good
going to see Remember me tomorrow
Robert Pattinson, hiyarghhh
btw Jack Whitehall and Robert Pattinson as one person would be my dream man
end of
x
so hiya
GUESS WHOS GOING LEEDS FEST BIATCHEZZZZZ
YEH ME
never been to a festival, so i figure that ill go to a huge one for the whole five days
who cares mothers paying
Leeds fest diet has begun, lets turn it into a lifestyle
i need to train myself into a big drunken mess
yes thats right, no food, lots of dancing and even more drinking
you know
my mum bought me an 'emergency poncho' but im just going to give it Gibo , i want a pretty one
ha
my mums talking to me right now but im completely ignoring her
shes so annoying
but shes got tha monzeeez so ya know, gots ta roll with it
cz pops aint guna losen those purse strings till hes dead
i can say this and not feel bad cause he keeps saying to us all that we will be happy when hes gone
my mothers comeback was pure brilliance
father: you'll all be happy when im gone, so you can have my money and im out of the way
mother: well why dont you slash your wrists and have done with it
i was speechless, it was fantastic, i began to curl up in a bawl howling with laughter, my mother even started laughing, i think my dad just walked upstairs and probably started crying, or began re-writing his will to one of his 'mates' who hes always at the pub with
ha just had to write this, so i dont forget
LOL x
YEH ME
never been to a festival, so i figure that ill go to a huge one for the whole five days
who cares mothers paying
Leeds fest diet has begun, lets turn it into a lifestyle
i need to train myself into a big drunken mess
yes thats right, no food, lots of dancing and even more drinking
you know
my mum bought me an 'emergency poncho' but im just going to give it Gibo , i want a pretty one
ha
my mums talking to me right now but im completely ignoring her
shes so annoying
but shes got tha monzeeez so ya know, gots ta roll with it
cz pops aint guna losen those purse strings till hes dead
i can say this and not feel bad cause he keeps saying to us all that we will be happy when hes gone
my mothers comeback was pure brilliance
father: you'll all be happy when im gone, so you can have my money and im out of the way
mother: well why dont you slash your wrists and have done with it
i was speechless, it was fantastic, i began to curl up in a bawl howling with laughter, my mother even started laughing, i think my dad just walked upstairs and probably started crying, or began re-writing his will to one of his 'mates' who hes always at the pub with
ha just had to write this, so i dont forget
LOL x
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